20080930

Today was busy day. Helping family, doing shopping for family. Then gardening. Sawing, cutting some parts of a tree and picking the fruit. The interesting thing I did was going to barber and shave (Synonym to your facial treatment) the same day u did. Well I studied a littled bit and then comes the cat we are supposed to take care for a few days. And visiting this guy. And here I am looking at ur pics and remembering all those nice memories we had together. I must confess, the very happy moments of my life. Please dont get used to this sentence " I miss you a lot", cause everytime I say it, I really mean it. I miss you a lot.

20080930

It's really hard to explain what I've done so far in Hong Kong. Apart from supply teaching, what else have I done? em... anyway... I went to do facial and massage again... and before that... haircut.

Why do I do these mo liu things so often?
1. My friend gave me a coupon for facial and massage, I want to use it asap.
2. Sometimes I'm mo liu.
3. These are the things I always wanted to do in London but turned out to be quite impossible.
4. I'm really mo liu.

You know? It's really difficult to stop myself from buying their package after trying their product and service. This time I still managed to stop myself. Not sure about next time. I felt so good that almost fell asleep during today's treatment and massage. You should go and learn it.

20080929

And finally I can add some stuff here. Hearing your nice voice without all these internet problems is such a gift. And the more pleasant thing is knowing you more and discovering the deep pure love in your heart. Being among family and friends and missing you all the time just tells me one thing. The most important is being with you. That's the thing only matters. 

I hope u dont feel any sympthoms of flu anymore. And I hope to see you very soon. At least you will eat fresh fruit. 

By the way I got more interested in Chinese traditioanl culture and specailly these rings. 

20080928

First of all, you need to know about the traditional Confucius culture. It's a huge system with Five Relationships that soldiers listen to emperors, students listen to teachers, children listen to parents, wives listen to husbands, younger siblings listen to older siblings. Therefore traditional Chinese culture is never a chaotic one. People were all born with a proper position and everything is in order in the society.

However, dad called me this afternoon, invited me to have dinner together in a restaurant near my home. Very likely he could sense that I won't get to parents home for dinner again. When I arrived the restaurant he asked if I didn't sleep well last night. He said he didn't sleep well too. He by no means intended to upset me but just felt worried about me that's why he might be overreacted last night. He even ended up in a rather apologizing manner, 'Father and daughter no overnight hatred ok?'

This is not a common type of conversation in a family in my culture. It seems my tears last night is more powerful than the 2500 years philosophy of Confucianism.

20080924

Listening to the music you have been put there, reading the story of James, I was over whelmed with so many emotions. I was touched by the story. If you want something you will get it, and then you will enjoy the happiness.
Oxford is really nice place. A city for me. Full of nice colleges and wonderful libraries. Quiet and peaceful. Even I enjoyed it so much I was thinking about you the whole time. It would be really wonderful if we went together. I really look forward to have a trip with you. Hope ur mother feels better soon.

20080924

My mom is having teeth problem, which is rare, I called my Dentist friend James (primary school classmate) for help. A nice conversation on phone, but his baby was crying too loud... wawawawa non-stop so we had plenty of pauses. I saw this baby once when he farewelled me last year so I asked how old the baby boy is now, 2 or 3 years old? He said, 'Nono! this crying one is a new one, a baby girl, just born on 2 sept!' Such a surprise reminded me a lot of their past. This couple stayed together for 8 years before marriage. Wife's family is the main obstacle coz they are from a better family and the key problem is: Jame's parents are both blind, Jame's and his sister were born short-sighted. In their wedding, a hectic one, the wife's family and relatives looked rather cold, but it was a very touching wedding to me, coz James knelt down suddenly in front of his sitting wife and cried, '...Finally I can marry you...' Now, 2-3 years later, second baby was born, suddenly he became a father of two, full of laughter over baby's tears.

20080923

The Promise

20080923

I am there with you all the time. Miles can not separate us. You are with me, when I wake up, when I eat, when I have a walk. It doesn't matter what is the time, I have only one thing, one picture in my mind. I think about your pretty face, I think about your cute voice and mo liu words. All of these give me so much happiness. I feel grateful for the gift I have received. And I feel so much energy to make this beautiful dream come true.

20080922

Nothing to record. You are already here with me. Trapped by the typhoon.

20080922b

I feel very bad about your sleeping hours. You need to sleep more. I wanna do some more packing for now. Actaully I think I am a very quick learner ;) Packing is like a doing puzzle. Just needs time and a little bit training.
I am listening to this song of John Denver "Life is so good". Actually I found that happy life is not having this and that. It is more about the way you look at your surrounding. Your mind shapes everything. We can not have a universe without putting mind into it. Thanks for brining happiness into my life. You are a gift from above.

20080921

Your effect in my life is like SUN. Without your presence everything looks dark and gloomy. Whenever you here, even when we are chatting my heart is filled with happiness. I see bright colors everyhwhere.
My last days here are busy with packing. The thing I am really bad , but getting experience. A friend invited to see him and his wife in Oxford. Pitty we didnt have time to go anywhere together, but it is only beginning of our path. There are lots of adventures, good days waiting for us. I can not tell you how much I tressure you, this relationship and this love. I just have found the meaning of life. Miss u my love

20080921

Thanks for telling me that it's one week already. Today I carried on fixing my home and had dinner with my classmates from London. 4 of us had gathering quite often near King's. It's always good to remember. Looking back I didn't talk to them much at the beginning of semester coz I found them nothing special, just normal teachers in Hong Kong. I was looking for any friends other than Hong Kong teachers. After my down period in Jan I start joining the group coz I think I need to be around with Hong Kong people, so that I can speak Cantonese, so that I can feel my culture, so that I can feel secured about this world. I missed Hong Kong very much at that time. Now, everything's proved to be fine. I get along well with them. I'm sorry for murmuring so much but I'm having quite some self reflection these days.

Perhaps Love

Perhaps love is like a resting place

A shelter from the storm

It exists to give you comfort

It is there to keep you warm

And in those times of trouble

When you are most alone

The memory of love will bring you home

Perhaps love is like a window

Perhaps an open door

It invites you to come closer

It wants to show you more

And even if you lose yourself

And don't know what to do

The memory of love will see you through

Oh, Love to some is like a cloud

To some as strong as steel

For some a way of living

For some a way to feel

And some say love is holding on

And some say letting go

And some say love is everything

And some say they don't know

Perhaps love is like the ocean

Full of conflict, full of pain

Like a fire when it's cold outside

Thunder when it rains

If I should live forever

And all my dreams come true

My memories of love will be of you

20080920

My love, you are the only one who know how to impress me. I could not tell you how I touched by that song. I understand the concerns you have, but rest assured you are making the right choice. Our love seed grows stronger everyday. My flat mate says "hey I have never seen you like this, I think you are really in love". And I say you are absolutely right. I am.
And thanks for ending my days of cliff hanging. They were the darkest days. I really dont wanna think about being back there and hanging there. Thanks.

20082020

If I'm with you, I have to learn to be tough. I don't know the time we are going to meet next, I just know I have to take care of myself before that. Going through all the physical hardship every hour in a day, it's something you can't understand. You might not know the meaning of physical limitation. I tried to push a heavy box to the ceiling today, tried 5 times but in vain. Tonight I pushed another big bag from parents place to my place, it's as heavy as 3-4 of your bags. i can't move it at all with 2 hands. I thought it will be ok coz I just need to grab it into the cab, finally I realized I was stupid. Sometimes can't is can't. I finally bruised my leg again when i grabbed it out of the cab.

Can you send me to the military service?

20080919

My heart was pounding as I stand in the crowded tube. I felt like a thirsty man. I could not stand it and the water was the lines from you on this blog. I can not describe how much I have been missing. How I rushed through the narrow steps to get to lap-top and read the blog. It didnt matter how hungry I was or tired. I really feel how much I need u. Long distance for us maybe even is an experience to evaluate the strength of this bonding. Today was a hectic day for me too. I didnt have time to eat breakfast. Rushed to Heathrow to buy the tickets. And then going to my bank. I went to that Turkish restaruant. That place, so many memories. You running ahead of me. The first date was there. Some times I think we should be really grateful for this gift. It is the most important thing one can have in his/her life. It is the gift of love.

a morning

20080919

Every day busy like hell.

Early in the morning rushed from parents home to my home to get dressed, couldn't find everything i wanted coz it's a chaotic battlefield.
Interview in the afternoon but it's not a real interview, supervisor just asked me to contact the teacher i'm substituted for and follow-up everything needed. Now not only my home's messy, the school work is even more messy, but i get used to it so i left school without taking anything home for class preparation. i will start teaching on monday morning.
Rushed back home in the evening coz Karen finally moved out so i could try to fix everything in the house it's messy messy messy.

20080918b

A very hectic day for me.
In the afternoon I went to brother's home to help him move, heavy piano heavy table heavy this and that.
In the evening I went shopping and dinner with Sally, my best friend. Long time no see she thinks you are Okay! she said image is very important. She strongly suggests you to 'edit' your image to 'attract me more'. ^^ She asked how come you smile differently (look much better) on the presentation day, compare with other photos? i said, coz he get used to be a self protective guy, get used to smile mysteriously, luckily after knowing me, he finally can smile naturally, (like a kid) ^0^!! so he looks much better on the presentation day!
Today I got a phone call from a school, the panal head wants to interview me tomorrow, i'll update you later about how long i am going to teach there.

20080918b

After each conversation with I feel like I had the best meal one can eat. I feel like the luckiest guy on earth. And I feel happy and secured. Everything looks much better and life is beautiful.
I am pretty sure that you will be fine tomorrow.
I am sitting here in front of window, looking out and thinking about the good times we had together. It was wonderful time. I never felt so happy for a long time. We will go like this for 42 years. ^o^

20080918

Last nite I had a dream. We were sitting and drinking orange juice and you told me"Dont worry. Everthing will be fine". I woke up and felt that I had a long converstation with you.
I understand the reaction of your parents and I respect that. I know what they are feeling, after all this is something very new. But I know one thing, as times goes by, everyday I feel that i am on the right path. Every day I see that all happened is like a fairy tale. And I do believe that all the things are part of bigger plan, it is not done by me or you. It was in our fate.
I know a few things more. Like your grand grand father said- maybe this needs a little bit more grand, " A journey of thousand miles begins with a single step". I am sure we have done more than few steps. And finally I have someone, i can feel proud of. You are the star in my life.
I hope u feel better soon and i hope to see you soon. Miss you hon.

20080918

don't feel upset about my parents' reaction. they are reasonable if you can think in their point of view. they are negotiable and respect me a lot. i still have no mood to do anything coz i still don't have a home yet, hopefully can feel better after weekend.

20080917

11:00 leaving to QM
12:30 One hour and thirty mins in way
12:33 I walked pass the Matsu Japanese Resturant. That fantastic dinner together.
12:33 On my way I looked at Chinese restarunt. 2nd of September will be for ever in my memories.
12:36 QM, this place, so many memories. I walked throught our usual path near canal. In our bench, a guy and girl were sitting and I asked myself "Do they know who have been here before?"
12:45 Claiming my deposit
13:00 meeting with my supervisor
14:00 having lunch with those 2 guys- Do u remember them?
15:00 Discussing my plans with these guys
16:00 Saying Goodbye to my nice lecturer
17:00 going and do some shopping
17:30 coming back with my flat mate
19:00 arrived home and cooking dinner
20:00 finished dinner
missing you

20080917

1430 - woke up (really scary! i've slept for 14 hours! but still headache...)
1600 - ate alone (chicken wing & sausage lai fun (similar to ho fun))
1700 - supermarket (bought daily stuff)
1900 - dinner with family in restaurant (wow! Uncle Wong was there too!)
2100 - arrived parents home (i had a long talk with mom before sleep, talking about you again

20080916

0900 - woke up and came back home
1200 - lunch alone (japanese noodle)
1300 - shopping (mattress, big towel, this and that)
1600 - went Pretty House for facial
1700 - stayed in Pretty House for body massage (can you go and take a massage course properly? it would be so great if my man is a professional massage master!! ^0^)
1800 - came back home, ate take away food with Crystal and Karen, home is messy like hell
2100 - arrived parents home