Resolution 2009

If 2008 was my turning point, what 2009 might be?
'8' means 'fortune' in chinese while '9' means 'forever'
that's why 2008/8/8 was set for the Olympics
hoping for fortune fortune and fortune...
So -
What 2009 may lead us to?
Do you know my resolution for 2009?
Can you guess, honey?

Resolution 2009

In less than one hour we are going to open a new chapter of our life
Right now I look at the past moments
It was a year full of hard work, stress, deadlines and so many other things
But it was a year that I received the most precious gift in my life
I am very grateful for knowing you, the most beautiful, kind and lovely girl on earth
We went through bad times and happy times
I wanted you to know that I will always be with you
Even you are far away I feel so close to you
Year 2009 here we come, happy and in love
May God speed your love to me

Heart of MJ

This is a gift that can really make me laugh!

I've never seen a heart of Mahjong. ^0^

20081226

Seeing something green here is nice.
It reminds me of so many things, good things.
It reminds of forest, grass, leaves and more important you
Whenever I feel blue, I come here and look at the history we share here
I look at the picture below, so many good memories lying there
Green gives me hope, motivation
It tells me the happy days are waiting head for us.

20081222

La lalallaalaaaa laaalalalaaa .a..a.a.a .....

Just to lalalala here
Or else you would complain again
See?
Can you see something GREEN here!

Welcome home
Babe.

Moon

Tonight as I was walking pass the cold yard, I looked up and see the shinny coin up there. It was looking different thought. We looked at the same thing with hours difference. You there, me here. But I felt moon more friendly that moment cause you started at it. I stood there in the cold and stared at it too, to feel closer to you. Is there anything more beautiful than you? Surely not.

FLOWER

Most of the time when I think of you, the first thing comes to my mind is a bunch of flowers. Now I know why. You know there is one thing I cannot stand, it is your tears.
I felt so bad when you were feeling down, but I felt so proud of you. You are an excellent teacher, a bouquet of flowers. And most important of all you have got a heart of gold. I am so proud of you. I have been touched by your words.

Meteor of Love

I know I have talked alot about it. But no matter how many times I have talked about, or I will, it is a fresh subject. I have a very close old friend. He stopped by to check on me this afternoon. We talked for a little while and all of a sudden he asked me "How long I have been known you?" I said 15 years or more. He said all these years he was thinking me of having a good brain and no heart. He still cannot believe the change in me. He thinks I am a 100% changed man.
And I say "Yes I am". You have appeared as a meteor of love and flowers in my life. Since that moment I am not the same person. I say love and flowers, cause the only thing that can be delicate as much as you are, are flowers. I cannot think of anything better to present you. You look like a flower, you smell like them. After all you have made of green leaves.

20081202

A small public library situated near my home, among the 30 public libraries in Hong Kong. Marcus is applying for a pilot position and he needs some urgent English tutorship, so I borrowed some references for him today. 12 years ago, I had my first job here: a librarian. After that, I have never walked into this library again. I was familiar with the desks, the shelves, the equipments and the setting. 12 years later, I'm shocked. New renovation, new shelves, new services, new equipments. I wandered around as a complete stranger. Suddenly, I recognized a staff there. The librarian. She's a bit older than me and she's STILL working there! I'm happy that I have read lots of books in this library. From children literature to romantic novels. From Chinese to English. From periodicals to academic references. From dong dong dong jumping life to klark klark klark decent steps.

Oh your eye

You look at your eye in the mirror and you see a mole. Let me tell you what i see in your eyes,.
I see two beautiful eyes. If you look carefully you will see more.
You will see a world full of bright colors, beauty that you can not describe.
Your eyes brighter than moon, and pure like mountain lakes.
I see life, I see happiness and I see love.
I have looked at many eyes, seen so many, never find anything as beautiful as yours.
Your eyes are windows to a beautiful place, your eyes are my path to your soul.
I like your eyes, whether with mole or without mole.
The only thing increases by time is your beauty and my love toward you.
Oh your eye

20081126

I'm not sure if I'm the reader here now, or the writer. Anyway I have to say something today.

I went to the eye clinic, finally. I wanted to go always, but a bit hesitated always. I don't want to face the cruel fact that my Lasik eye surgery in 2006 was not a complete success. From the media I'm sure you've heard a lot about Lasik problems worldwide. That's why I spent more money, went to one of the best priviate hospitals here, and asked the most famous eye surgeon for help. All I want is a safe and perfect surgery. I can't deny that my eye sight is very good now. But how about the mark that has left on my left eye? Today, the doctor told me that it's not caused by the surgery, it's like the moles in other parts of our body, the color would become darker when we grow older. If I want to remove it from my eye, it's like removing moles from our skin, and more complicated for sure. Honestly I really dunno if it's appearing naturally or after surgery, but it really appeared some time after the surgery. He said there's no eye drops or stuff that can remove the 'stain' there.

Oh. My eye.

20081125

I told my mom about cooking stuff you wanted to buy her. She asked me to thank you. She really apprecited it. What is more valuable than £1000 gift is the intention. It was really nice of you to think about us that moment. It is worth more than any gift. Thank you.

Happy Birthday

You are the most caring, the most beautiful and the kindest person I have ever known. I wish you a very happy birthday and a year of success and happiness especially a year that I am part of it. Happy birthday.

20081115

The little things that mean so much

It can be starting day with hearing your voice

When you are feeling down and blue, having a surprise call from your loved one

It was much better than brand mark shirt, more valuable than a Ferrari car

It was more beautiful than sunrise, more touchy than a painting

It can fill you with happiness

It is a sign of love, sign of hope

It is your voice from a distant place

Flower

I just wanna feed you apples
I wanna see you cooking
I miss the late night walks
Cuddling under the tree
I miss the 3 circles, David Crystal, submission deadlines
I wanna grow old with you
That's all I want
I want to wake up and see you around
I want to wake up  without being worried about Green leaves
I want to hear your voice near my ear
I wanna be with you day and night
This love between us is like a flower, nice and beautiful, it just needs to be watered
There is nothing more important than this flower
There is nothing more beautiful than you
I like green leaves of the flower
I like green leaves especially when they are so green like Green Green

Miss FL

As I started reading the blog I felt myself under the rush of different feelings.First of all it was really beautiful. People talk about art, they talk about this and that famous artist, but these words were much more beautiful. I felt they are alive cause they were also a reflection of my feelings.

Love is something true, something pure. You can not escpae it. You can not fake it. You can not pretend you are in love. It is just obvious. I understand what he is talking about. I feel the way he feels. You can live your whole life and never find your true love. How sad it is. Some people live their lives in ignorance. You can have some many goals in your mind. So many dreams. Candian dreams, American dreams, but when you meet the right person all these thing mean nothing to you. You ready to scarifice anything. That's the beauty of it.

Yes it is true, you learn a lot. I agree with that. You opened a door to whole new world for me. Yes you miss Fl. When I read these words, I was just thinking about you. I tried to be a better person. I became more practical. I felt a big responsiblity. You deserve the best, I should give you the best. I will. I can never forgive myself if I can not do this.John didnt see Miss S. for a number of days. But how about me? My whole life turned to a nightmare the moment you left in Terminal 5. I still can not recall the scence. My heart torn to pieces. I couldnt move. I never felt so heavy. Yet there was one single thing kept me walking, hope. I was like a crazy person, I couldnt take a shower until the day I heard your voice. The day you said you love was the most beautiful moment. I came back to life. When I say, there is no life without you I mean it. You are with me the whole time, day and night.

You just dont know how happy i am when I hear your cute voice. I remember every single minuet we spent together. That tree, the bench, the walk near the canal. What can be more beautiful?

I feel so lucky to find you.My life is so perfect with you. The way I feel now, is the same as a fish feels out of water. The way I suffer, the same a man feels without oxygen.The pain is worse than being under a rain of fire. I stand all these just in hope of reaching you soon. I feel so happy for John. It is so nice that he has found the real love. I am so happy for ourselves. What we have done is bridging the gap of cultures, nations and conutries. And I am such privileged guy who has met you. You are a gift from above. You are an angel from heaven.

Miss S.

Here is a brief translation of John's Love Declaration to Sarah in his blog 3 days ago. His blog is called 'I travel therefore I am', which recorded his travelling everyday life. He never talked about his love life there and he never discussed it with anybody. Usually he gets 2 to 3 comments for each entry. But for this Love Declaration, so far he got 50 comments already, obviously his friends and colleagues were all surprised:

Miss S.

I'm going for a new marathon journey to Lyon, Nice and Cannes few days later . That means I have to stay away from S for a short while... I mentioned S quite frequently here in the blog. Now, it's the right moment to introduce S to you all.

Life is full of surprises. In this year of London, books are not well read, English has not improved, but an unexpected love, is found.

I am a journalist, 90% of us are female. Guys all chose subjects that can make big money. But I never got close to any girls. After graduation, I spent all my time and effort earning and saving money. I always think Love is not a big deal, so many people cannot find their real love in their life. I understand that from my parents. It's good to be single.

S studied in UCL and I studied in SOAS. Our student residence were so close to each other. That's how the story began. We made dinner together, studied together, attended musical concerts and joined other activities together. I realised that we've got so much in common. We both love outdoor activities, hiking, running, travelling, wild camping, fine art and learning something new...

She's not interested in shopping and she spent all her time on fine art. She is not interested in make-up or fancy things coz her beauty does not rely on any of those things. She's as careless as me but she's always lucky enough to settle everything at the end. She's nice, tender, beautiful, considerate and good at cooking. She has long black hair, silly and cute. I spend every day with her, how can I not love her?

What is love? It's something last till your death. But even if you die, you may not have the chance to find the one who worths your life and death. The possibility of finding your real love is like winning a lottery. It's really not easy to find someone you're wholeheartedly willing to sacrifice everything for, it's even more difficult to have that one love you back as well. You may not find it even you spend whole life searching it hard.

Coz of S, I know myself all over again. In order to get her, I did a lot of things that scared even myself. She made me a better person. She let me know that the ME in the past was not lovely and not as good as I imagined.

I am not a good person. I committed a lot of mistakes and did a lot of stupid things in the past. Meeting S in London is a fortune in my life. The memory with her in London is my most precious moment in London. Without her, my London life is a cup of milk tea without sugar.

S showed me what love is. She let me understand that nothing can be calculated. Those I thought important were actually not that important. The most fortunate marathon in life is not running marathon all over the world. The most fortunate marathon is having your loved one holding your dog waiting for you at the finishing line.

It's just the beginning. Challenges are waiting ahead. Love is full of difficulties. Nobody would treasure those easy or instant love.

I have nothing for S. I'm not rich. I don't have a well paid job. I only use writing to support my living. My saving is now blown away by the economic crisis. All I can give you is love. I already missed the first half of your life. I just hope our meeting is not a shallow one. So that I can hold your hand in the second half of your life. Till the end of this world...

20081106

sand, shell and the reason

I am sand, I am shell, but behind all these names there is a reason.
The reason for looking ahead, the reason for breathing. The reason is You.
I am a human. My biggest sin is loving you. My crime is being born some place else.
Maybe things look hard, but they are there to show us how much we can.
Life is not working well paid jobs. Life is not being some where your parents dictate. Life is not adding an entry to your C.V.
Life is feeding you fruit. Sitting on the bench, watching the river goes by. Life is listening to you sing a song. Life is listening to you, scolding me all the time.
Test my love. Scare it by whatever come to your mind. My love is inside a shell. No one can touch it.
The reasons for being with you is like counting the number of sand pebbles. You are the reason. I am the sand. I am the shell. Let this happen.

20081024

Dining with parents. They tell me I've brought London's weather with me here. I feel the way now accept me. They see this new picture of me. Implicitly and explicitly they want me to stay. That's what they want. But they realize that there is also a more important thing. They want the me to be happy and to respect my decisions.
I understand how your parents feel. I feel sad when I read those lines. But they do not see the situation from other angles. We want to be happy. I will make whatever I can to make you happy. And I am not taking you away forever. I am ready to sacrifice everything, dreams to be with you. This is like a temporary period. They should also how much we care about each other. I am not going to take you away for a long time. We will come back.

20081022

It's been a while. I haven't bullshitted here for a long time but you know my life clearer than ever. Don't you think it's like a relationship between inspector and criminal, that you won't feel satisfied until you know exactly what food I eat what TV I watch what time I sleep? Anyway I'm not complaining, I just want to emphasize our intimacy over the ocean(s). Congratulations again to your HOPE. I guess you might have been jumping up and down for weeks already and now even bouncing here and there! Stop moving around and sit quietly as a decent guy please. Stop scratching the walls and speak normally as a scholar please. For God's sake.

20081020

Sometimes the simplest things turns to be a trouble. And finally the news is that the ticket to your place will cost something like £500 and there is no direct fly. I think I should make it like I can do a few things in that time apart from 48 hours planned schedule.

Chinese Made Easy

Are you interested in learning Chinese?

20081017

I dont know why IT stuff has installed novel on your lap-top. But we can use all the softwares you have declared as ok.
Today I am a little bit better with a little bit headache. Maybe I have to come and see you. I know it is not good time for you, but at least i wanna know how much it will cost me.
I hope you relax this weekend and feel better. Enjoy your weekend.

aai...

i have pc problem, after IT staff setting up Novell Login in my pc, i can't online properly at home now: Internet explorer NOT OK, Mozilla Firefox OK, MSN NOT OK, Skype OK!

20081015

Life is a like long road,
some kilometers easy to pass, some hard.
Sometimes you reach a bend in the road
sometimes you bump to a tree blocking the whole way ahead
Hope is like fuel to your engine
You can not make your way without it
You are my fuel in life
It is not about shirt A or B
It is about the beauty of your intention
You are the motivation to keep me going on this journey
That's the moment you realize nothing can stop you
The best part is waiting for us
We have just reached a bend

20081014

Shirt A & Shirt B

20081014

Staying at home and waiting is the hardest thing one can do. I have turned to a house wife. Doing shopping, cleaning and now I am making pickles. Studying feels much better.
Today i am gonna see that guy again. He seems so interested in this thing and for me sounds like a good plan. Well it is not one day plan, requires lots of planning and thinking , but at least it can be more productive time.
If u need any advice with cooking or house-hold stuff let me know.

Aydin the genius!

Existentialism - Ching Ching 2008

20081013

You know I never brag myelf. I just came back home after interview and found a big book squeenzed into my mail box. It was King's College Graduate Prospectus 2009. Why did they send me this? coz...

I'm the spokeperson of my course.

Don't get jealous. You are a genius too!

20081012

My mom still is so connected with Ceaser. Everyone is missing him a lot. But she still can not get over him. If someone asks me what is the most difficlut on earth, I will say waiting. Even in exam times i didnt feel so bad. Really bad. At least studying helps.Last nite there was such heavy rain and storm that our windows were shaking. Lightining non-stop. But for me it is nice. Everything in nature is fine with me. EXCEPT heat. That's only thing I hate. So no Africa,ok? We can think of something starting with A, like Alaska.

Friends introduction 2

Just carry on with this task:

Dinner on Tuesday:
Kai (30) - non-degree holder, now 999 emergency hotline police adminstration officer.
Kai's wife (30) - non-degree holder, human resources officer for local company.
Yeung (28) - non-degree holder, event management officer.

Dinner on Thursday:
Agnes (29) - BA in Nottingham, stayed in UK for 15 years, now operation manager in a British statationary company.

Lunch on Friday:
Eric (36) - non-degree holder, he owned a small design company for 10 years, they design, print or produce.

Dinner on Friday:
Amy (50) - MA in linguistics in UK, MA in Chinese in HK, now lecturer in government vocational institute.

Tea today:
Aachino (29) - BA in Economics, now lecturer in Open University in HK.

20081011

I did not get much sleep last nite, actually I didnt sleep at all. And this morning I had to wake up early cause my mom needed help with some stuff. Then I went and managed some of my dad's stuff. There is a long list of people I should go and visit but I dont feel like doing it.

Back to studying. Maybe I should brush my French a little bit. Who know when I should order food for you in some french speaking country.

Update me cause I wanna know what has happened.

20081010

1000 - Happy that need not to wake up so early, finally can sleep for 8 hours.
1100 - Surfed on net: School A & B wanted long term teacher, School C wanted supply teacher. So I faxed my CV to them all.
1300 - Lunch with Eric, a friend.
1500 - Walked around in town centre alone. Eating local snacks on the street, with my vest/shorts/flipflops, School A suddenly called me and asked me to have an interview at 1700.
I hate it but still got back home to get changed and took a cab to that school far far away.
1700 - Long interview with English panal head, then Vice Principal. Really chi sin! They asked questions non-stop! blalblalbalalblla.
1930 - Dinner with Amy, my 'personal advisor' all my life.
2130 - School B called me for an interview on Monday.
2300 - Came back home and felt annoyed with a guy in MSN.

20081009

I can not be so precise on commenting to that proposal, but at least he had to remove the price label. At least he could have figured out the plan, instead of wandering around. And what is the purpose of wedding? I think that's the moment that you will remember for whole life. Then why u should not make your partner happy, is that's what she wants. 

In our culture short and stocky is a symbol of dishonesty, but ofcourse you can not and you should not generalize it. The bottom line, sincereity is something that everyone can feel it, no matter where are you from, cultural differences. You can feel it, the first time you meet someone. So as a friend I think it is your responsibility to give her a little bit warning. 

I had to see this teacher yesterday evening. She is the one that changed my whole life. When every regarded me as a failure she was the only believed in me. All of these things happened, even we meeting each other was because of her constant encouragement. I have told a lot about her, but the point i wanna make here is life is a direct results of your beliefs. 

I went there with a box of candies. And her mo liu husband told me "why you didnt bring us any pickles?"

Crystal's proposal

One night after dinner, Lofai insisted to take Crystal to a park for a walk at 11pm. She's a bit tired though coz of her flu. Sitting and chatting on the swings in a dark quiet park, he suddenly took this little wooden music box out and manually turned the wooden knot on the side. Wedding tunes thus came. He then stopped turning and music stopped accordingly. He knelt down, took the ring out, and proposed seriously.

As a creative director, is it creative enough? I know I have bias towards Lofai yet there are really quite a few things that I don't feel comfortable with:

1. This guy claimed that he got many many creative plans for proposal and finally chose this one. What's special about this one by the way.

2. There's no need to be special but I just doubt his sincerity. He couldn't find the way to the park and wandered around that area until Crystal wanted to get back home. It seems that he's just finding a quiet place at that moment. Obviously not a well planned night.

3. When he's proposing, he said all the elements were there: romantic music, a ring and flowers (he said the tree on the music box is flowers).

4. He didn't remove the price label underneath the music box, there is a sharp pink label written $13.90.

5. Everybody knows Crystal wants a proper wedding ceremony. He doesn't want it. So they are negotiating now and Crystal is insisting a western cocktail party at least.

It seems I should not murmur too much but that's what Crystal showed me last night. I really hope I can say these things to her but just can't.

You wake me up.

I know your first reaction as you read these lines will be " hey he is angry". Well I am not. Actually I must confess I am happy. I was feeling something going wrong. I felt that. Remember in the last days u asked me if I am human? Well sometimes I wonder how it is possible to feel and know these things. I was blind until yesterday. And I felt that some vicious cycle is happening again. Among those characterisitic of you that I admire, honesty is something I aprreciate a lot. To be honest I would not stand this if I was looking for short term stuff. There are so many things I have not told about myself. I left them for you to discover. Sometimes i think i need to talk about them. Sometimes you see the finger pointing to the moon. There are certain things i can not promise you now. I can not promise a wallet full of money. But i can see a happy life. Here comes the question, which one is more important?I have looked at so many lives, rich people, poor people. I have learnt the most important thing is love. Money can buy so many things,but there are other stuff that you can not buy. Maybe I am more ambitious than you. I have learnt my lessons from life. I look back at our story. It is amazing in so many respects. It didnt get here just because of me. Actually u made so many things happen especially in the begining. When look back I can not say every single moment was happy. But I see so many good things happened in the short time. We met in a very stressful time. We did so much together. We had productive time. We bridged the gap between nations, cultures. All of these are wonderful. I have learnt also one thing, I shall not and I wont force things in a realtion. It is a mutual thing. There are so many thing why this relation between you and me is unique. But I have walked so fast. I will walk with ur pace.And try my best to makes us happy.

20081007

The internet sucks. I wrote once and all the things are gone. So I am gonna write again.
I found that being a dead vegetable is the hardest thing. It feels so bad. I prefer working. So here i am back to studying and teaching.
I found that the level of my attachment to you is incredibly higher than both of us can imagine. Even for me it is amazing. I just had a taste of it when you left fpr 3 hours to get your books. I just tocuhed when I didnt hear your voice for more than one day. For me after all it is very good sign. That's what I have been looking for. That's a sign saying "Romantic life ahead".
Getting know ur friends, even with name makes me feel like i am there, with you. Thanks for sharing these with me.
Having flu and chatting with you is nice mixture. Whenever I talk with you I forget all the bad things. I know what you are saying," chi sin".

Friends introduction

I really want you to know more about the people around me. I think I can introduce by the sequence I met after I came back:

Crystal (29) - master in sports science, now secondary teacher, getting married winter 2009.
Crystal's bf Lofai (29) - master in Oxford, chevening 2002, now creative director in international advertising company.
Sally (29) - bachelor in accounting in Australia, now executive in international event management company.
Sally's bf Ramesh (29) - Indian Malaysian, master in Oxford, chevening 2004, now manager in international eco-engineering company.
Alison (28) - MBA in Germany, after Bloomberg now executive in JP morgan, getting married Nov 2008.
Alison's bf Bill (29) - master in social science, now legislative council member in HK.
Jayson (31) - master in Bath, now studying PGDE, will teach next year.

6 people eat hotpot tonight:
Kai sir (42) - master in Japan, now manager in engineering in Canon.
Michael (36) - studying distant MBA with Beijing U, now manager in trading company in China.
Jovy (29) - studying distant MBA with Leicester UK, now excutive in CIMA (British accounting association), getting married Oct 2009.
Jovy's bf Fei (29) - dunno, property management field
Jessica (30) - bachelor in Canada, now executive in Singaporean publication company
Jessica's bf Kit (34) - dunno, logistics field

20081006

It seems I start building up relationship with your parents, which is nice, say Thanks for me whenever you feel appropriate.

I had a long night with my friends. Suddenly I want to tell you more about my friends, coz as I told you, HK people got strong attachment to friends, we share, we help, we support. Nobody can stand alone in this society esp when HK is already passing through the 'secondary industry era' back in the 80s. Starting from 90s, HK is becoming a 'tertiary industry' dominant society where services and information become the key component to success. That's why in such rapid changing region even friends gatherings are important. We can exchange a lot of information in different industry and share a lot of happiness and stress together. Tonight, a girl announced that she's getting married, another girl cried immediately. Apart from love, this is friendship.

20081006

Do you remember our first meeting? Ofcourse you do, cause I've shown you that bench at least thousands of times. You said the most important factor in judging the success of a person is to see how happy he has been. I agree with you. I put it this way: to see how successful person is to ask him if he has been in real love.

I have learnt that you can reach positions, money and .... So many people have failed to find true love.

What a gift it is. Your voice is fresh breath of heaven. Every time we talk, I feel full of life.

20081005

Dad told me he went to supermarket yesterday. He saw some plums that looked nice but didn't have enough time to stop and pick it one by one. It's just too trouble. However at that moment he saw a bag of plums which is 'already packed with priced label' so he thought: um... maybe I can just take this bag... but when he took the bag, he thought: um... maybe somebody leave it here and will come back and take it... I'd better choose the other plums there. And he did.

Dad said: sometimes there's something we just can't explain. It's your mom who left that bag of plums there.

20081003

You have me, I have you

What is more beautiful than it

Obastacles show up whenever you take your eyes off your goals

I have learnt one thing " if you can dream it, you can make it"

We are so lucky to share this beautiful dream

You are going through hard time, I am going through harder

You love me, but I love you more

You miss me, but I miss you more

I know your legs are tired, cause you have been walking in my dream all nite.

Dead?

You are not that dead, my internet connection at work and at home are really dead.
I think there must be something wrong in me. Both my home and my workplace got the same symtoms, weak wireless signal or sometimes even no signal at all.
It seems we are not going to communicate well in the coming days. Yet, don't call me so often on phone as I can imagine how costly it can be. Reading back your blue words you can see how inhumane these green words can be. ^^

the nite

I dont feel like writing a word. I felt half dead, but this was incredible. I could not help it. I had to share it with. I was sitting there and all of sudden my dad came and out of blue he asked when is she coming? He never called any of my ex with a name. This was first time. They were always gold diggers. So I felt like I was hit by truck. "I dont know, maybe not too soon". Tell her to come soon. Why? Cause you miss her too much.

I know what you think. You are thinking about problems and you are thinking I am fine. I was half dead today. I never felt so bad in whole my life. Be with me plz. The whole thing doesnt worth without you.

20080930

Today was busy day. Helping family, doing shopping for family. Then gardening. Sawing, cutting some parts of a tree and picking the fruit. The interesting thing I did was going to barber and shave (Synonym to your facial treatment) the same day u did. Well I studied a littled bit and then comes the cat we are supposed to take care for a few days. And visiting this guy. And here I am looking at ur pics and remembering all those nice memories we had together. I must confess, the very happy moments of my life. Please dont get used to this sentence " I miss you a lot", cause everytime I say it, I really mean it. I miss you a lot.

20080930

It's really hard to explain what I've done so far in Hong Kong. Apart from supply teaching, what else have I done? em... anyway... I went to do facial and massage again... and before that... haircut.

Why do I do these mo liu things so often?
1. My friend gave me a coupon for facial and massage, I want to use it asap.
2. Sometimes I'm mo liu.
3. These are the things I always wanted to do in London but turned out to be quite impossible.
4. I'm really mo liu.

You know? It's really difficult to stop myself from buying their package after trying their product and service. This time I still managed to stop myself. Not sure about next time. I felt so good that almost fell asleep during today's treatment and massage. You should go and learn it.

20080929

And finally I can add some stuff here. Hearing your nice voice without all these internet problems is such a gift. And the more pleasant thing is knowing you more and discovering the deep pure love in your heart. Being among family and friends and missing you all the time just tells me one thing. The most important is being with you. That's the thing only matters. 

I hope u dont feel any sympthoms of flu anymore. And I hope to see you very soon. At least you will eat fresh fruit. 

By the way I got more interested in Chinese traditioanl culture and specailly these rings. 

20080928

First of all, you need to know about the traditional Confucius culture. It's a huge system with Five Relationships that soldiers listen to emperors, students listen to teachers, children listen to parents, wives listen to husbands, younger siblings listen to older siblings. Therefore traditional Chinese culture is never a chaotic one. People were all born with a proper position and everything is in order in the society.

However, dad called me this afternoon, invited me to have dinner together in a restaurant near my home. Very likely he could sense that I won't get to parents home for dinner again. When I arrived the restaurant he asked if I didn't sleep well last night. He said he didn't sleep well too. He by no means intended to upset me but just felt worried about me that's why he might be overreacted last night. He even ended up in a rather apologizing manner, 'Father and daughter no overnight hatred ok?'

This is not a common type of conversation in a family in my culture. It seems my tears last night is more powerful than the 2500 years philosophy of Confucianism.

20080924

Listening to the music you have been put there, reading the story of James, I was over whelmed with so many emotions. I was touched by the story. If you want something you will get it, and then you will enjoy the happiness.
Oxford is really nice place. A city for me. Full of nice colleges and wonderful libraries. Quiet and peaceful. Even I enjoyed it so much I was thinking about you the whole time. It would be really wonderful if we went together. I really look forward to have a trip with you. Hope ur mother feels better soon.

20080924

My mom is having teeth problem, which is rare, I called my Dentist friend James (primary school classmate) for help. A nice conversation on phone, but his baby was crying too loud... wawawawa non-stop so we had plenty of pauses. I saw this baby once when he farewelled me last year so I asked how old the baby boy is now, 2 or 3 years old? He said, 'Nono! this crying one is a new one, a baby girl, just born on 2 sept!' Such a surprise reminded me a lot of their past. This couple stayed together for 8 years before marriage. Wife's family is the main obstacle coz they are from a better family and the key problem is: Jame's parents are both blind, Jame's and his sister were born short-sighted. In their wedding, a hectic one, the wife's family and relatives looked rather cold, but it was a very touching wedding to me, coz James knelt down suddenly in front of his sitting wife and cried, '...Finally I can marry you...' Now, 2-3 years later, second baby was born, suddenly he became a father of two, full of laughter over baby's tears.

20080923

The Promise

20080923

I am there with you all the time. Miles can not separate us. You are with me, when I wake up, when I eat, when I have a walk. It doesn't matter what is the time, I have only one thing, one picture in my mind. I think about your pretty face, I think about your cute voice and mo liu words. All of these give me so much happiness. I feel grateful for the gift I have received. And I feel so much energy to make this beautiful dream come true.

20080922

Nothing to record. You are already here with me. Trapped by the typhoon.

20080922b

I feel very bad about your sleeping hours. You need to sleep more. I wanna do some more packing for now. Actaully I think I am a very quick learner ;) Packing is like a doing puzzle. Just needs time and a little bit training.
I am listening to this song of John Denver "Life is so good". Actually I found that happy life is not having this and that. It is more about the way you look at your surrounding. Your mind shapes everything. We can not have a universe without putting mind into it. Thanks for brining happiness into my life. You are a gift from above.

20080921

Your effect in my life is like SUN. Without your presence everything looks dark and gloomy. Whenever you here, even when we are chatting my heart is filled with happiness. I see bright colors everyhwhere.
My last days here are busy with packing. The thing I am really bad , but getting experience. A friend invited to see him and his wife in Oxford. Pitty we didnt have time to go anywhere together, but it is only beginning of our path. There are lots of adventures, good days waiting for us. I can not tell you how much I tressure you, this relationship and this love. I just have found the meaning of life. Miss u my love

20080921

Thanks for telling me that it's one week already. Today I carried on fixing my home and had dinner with my classmates from London. 4 of us had gathering quite often near King's. It's always good to remember. Looking back I didn't talk to them much at the beginning of semester coz I found them nothing special, just normal teachers in Hong Kong. I was looking for any friends other than Hong Kong teachers. After my down period in Jan I start joining the group coz I think I need to be around with Hong Kong people, so that I can speak Cantonese, so that I can feel my culture, so that I can feel secured about this world. I missed Hong Kong very much at that time. Now, everything's proved to be fine. I get along well with them. I'm sorry for murmuring so much but I'm having quite some self reflection these days.

Perhaps Love

Perhaps love is like a resting place

A shelter from the storm

It exists to give you comfort

It is there to keep you warm

And in those times of trouble

When you are most alone

The memory of love will bring you home

Perhaps love is like a window

Perhaps an open door

It invites you to come closer

It wants to show you more

And even if you lose yourself

And don't know what to do

The memory of love will see you through

Oh, Love to some is like a cloud

To some as strong as steel

For some a way of living

For some a way to feel

And some say love is holding on

And some say letting go

And some say love is everything

And some say they don't know

Perhaps love is like the ocean

Full of conflict, full of pain

Like a fire when it's cold outside

Thunder when it rains

If I should live forever

And all my dreams come true

My memories of love will be of you

20080920

My love, you are the only one who know how to impress me. I could not tell you how I touched by that song. I understand the concerns you have, but rest assured you are making the right choice. Our love seed grows stronger everyday. My flat mate says "hey I have never seen you like this, I think you are really in love". And I say you are absolutely right. I am.
And thanks for ending my days of cliff hanging. They were the darkest days. I really dont wanna think about being back there and hanging there. Thanks.

20082020

If I'm with you, I have to learn to be tough. I don't know the time we are going to meet next, I just know I have to take care of myself before that. Going through all the physical hardship every hour in a day, it's something you can't understand. You might not know the meaning of physical limitation. I tried to push a heavy box to the ceiling today, tried 5 times but in vain. Tonight I pushed another big bag from parents place to my place, it's as heavy as 3-4 of your bags. i can't move it at all with 2 hands. I thought it will be ok coz I just need to grab it into the cab, finally I realized I was stupid. Sometimes can't is can't. I finally bruised my leg again when i grabbed it out of the cab.

Can you send me to the military service?

20080919

My heart was pounding as I stand in the crowded tube. I felt like a thirsty man. I could not stand it and the water was the lines from you on this blog. I can not describe how much I have been missing. How I rushed through the narrow steps to get to lap-top and read the blog. It didnt matter how hungry I was or tired. I really feel how much I need u. Long distance for us maybe even is an experience to evaluate the strength of this bonding. Today was a hectic day for me too. I didnt have time to eat breakfast. Rushed to Heathrow to buy the tickets. And then going to my bank. I went to that Turkish restaruant. That place, so many memories. You running ahead of me. The first date was there. Some times I think we should be really grateful for this gift. It is the most important thing one can have in his/her life. It is the gift of love.

a morning

20080919

Every day busy like hell.

Early in the morning rushed from parents home to my home to get dressed, couldn't find everything i wanted coz it's a chaotic battlefield.
Interview in the afternoon but it's not a real interview, supervisor just asked me to contact the teacher i'm substituted for and follow-up everything needed. Now not only my home's messy, the school work is even more messy, but i get used to it so i left school without taking anything home for class preparation. i will start teaching on monday morning.
Rushed back home in the evening coz Karen finally moved out so i could try to fix everything in the house it's messy messy messy.

20080918b

A very hectic day for me.
In the afternoon I went to brother's home to help him move, heavy piano heavy table heavy this and that.
In the evening I went shopping and dinner with Sally, my best friend. Long time no see she thinks you are Okay! she said image is very important. She strongly suggests you to 'edit' your image to 'attract me more'. ^^ She asked how come you smile differently (look much better) on the presentation day, compare with other photos? i said, coz he get used to be a self protective guy, get used to smile mysteriously, luckily after knowing me, he finally can smile naturally, (like a kid) ^0^!! so he looks much better on the presentation day!
Today I got a phone call from a school, the panal head wants to interview me tomorrow, i'll update you later about how long i am going to teach there.

20080918b

After each conversation with I feel like I had the best meal one can eat. I feel like the luckiest guy on earth. And I feel happy and secured. Everything looks much better and life is beautiful.
I am pretty sure that you will be fine tomorrow.
I am sitting here in front of window, looking out and thinking about the good times we had together. It was wonderful time. I never felt so happy for a long time. We will go like this for 42 years. ^o^

20080918

Last nite I had a dream. We were sitting and drinking orange juice and you told me"Dont worry. Everthing will be fine". I woke up and felt that I had a long converstation with you.
I understand the reaction of your parents and I respect that. I know what they are feeling, after all this is something very new. But I know one thing, as times goes by, everyday I feel that i am on the right path. Every day I see that all happened is like a fairy tale. And I do believe that all the things are part of bigger plan, it is not done by me or you. It was in our fate.
I know a few things more. Like your grand grand father said- maybe this needs a little bit more grand, " A journey of thousand miles begins with a single step". I am sure we have done more than few steps. And finally I have someone, i can feel proud of. You are the star in my life.
I hope u feel better soon and i hope to see you soon. Miss you hon.

20080918

don't feel upset about my parents' reaction. they are reasonable if you can think in their point of view. they are negotiable and respect me a lot. i still have no mood to do anything coz i still don't have a home yet, hopefully can feel better after weekend.

20080917

11:00 leaving to QM
12:30 One hour and thirty mins in way
12:33 I walked pass the Matsu Japanese Resturant. That fantastic dinner together.
12:33 On my way I looked at Chinese restarunt. 2nd of September will be for ever in my memories.
12:36 QM, this place, so many memories. I walked throught our usual path near canal. In our bench, a guy and girl were sitting and I asked myself "Do they know who have been here before?"
12:45 Claiming my deposit
13:00 meeting with my supervisor
14:00 having lunch with those 2 guys- Do u remember them?
15:00 Discussing my plans with these guys
16:00 Saying Goodbye to my nice lecturer
17:00 going and do some shopping
17:30 coming back with my flat mate
19:00 arrived home and cooking dinner
20:00 finished dinner
missing you

20080917

1430 - woke up (really scary! i've slept for 14 hours! but still headache...)
1600 - ate alone (chicken wing & sausage lai fun (similar to ho fun))
1700 - supermarket (bought daily stuff)
1900 - dinner with family in restaurant (wow! Uncle Wong was there too!)
2100 - arrived parents home (i had a long talk with mom before sleep, talking about you again

20080916

0900 - woke up and came back home
1200 - lunch alone (japanese noodle)
1300 - shopping (mattress, big towel, this and that)
1600 - went Pretty House for facial
1700 - stayed in Pretty House for body massage (can you go and take a massage course properly? it would be so great if my man is a professional massage master!! ^0^)
1800 - came back home, ate take away food with Crystal and Karen, home is messy like hell
2100 - arrived parents home